There used to be a time when I didn't dwell on things. I would hear something, contemplate it and then stash it away and never pull it out of my brain again. Things wouldn't stick with me. I wouldn't self-reflect. Life was good enough so why mess with it was a common thought. Who needs to improve on "good enough".
I never really thought too deeply about anything important when it came to my self growth. I went with the flow of life. Maybe that was because if I thought too deeply about something I wouldn't like where the thought process would take me.
But lately that has all changed. EVERYTHING stays on my brain. I can't get it out. Even if I "unpack" it I still can't shake it off. For instance, I wrote about the lady I met in the park a few weeks back. That still pops in my head from time to time. Can't shake it.
The MN Blogging Conference that I wrote about yesterday had many thought provoking moments. The one that is totally sticking with me is the thought that I need to blog to share my story. That there will be someone that will benefit from what I blog. That what ever I write about there may be someone out there that needs to hear just that. That is on my brain. Constantly.
The MN Blogging Conference that I wrote about yesterday had many thought provoking moments. The one that is totally sticking with me is the thought that I need to blog to share my story. That there will be someone that will benefit from what I blog. That what ever I write about there may be someone out there that needs to hear just that. That is on my brain. Constantly.
And then today we went to church and the message was primarily on transformation. The biggest take away was that in making the transformation in your life from the old ways of life (hostility, hatred, anger, selfishness, envy etc.) to the new ways of the spirit (love, joy, peace, patience, kindness etc.) progress is the goal and not perfection. I needed to hear that. It is important to put in the effort, take advice and make changes but it need not (and probably won't be) perfect.
Been thinking about that all day. All these thoughts and moments of my life lately that won't escape my brain are part of my quest for transformation. A quest that is worked on every day and has no end. And as long as I keep reflecting and adjusting as need be and doing it with an authentic heart, I am meeting my goals in the eyes of God.
Which brings me to why I have changed in this respect. I believe in God and therefore believe that God has a plan for all these moments in my life that I have been experiencing lately. And apparently He isn't done with the ones that stick. I have things to learn yet and grow from. My transformation in my faith in the last couple of years has been pretty dramatic. So I don't think it was that I didn't have those moments before. I just chose to ignore them. And now I can't.
And this is good. Although it sometimes leaves my brain feeling pretty fried and makes it hard to put a thought together and explain it. Hope that isn't the case with this blog!
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Hi again!
So fun to spend some time with you on Sat!
"The one that is totally sticking with me is the thought that I need to blog to share my story. That there will be someone that will benefit from what I blog. That what ever I write about there may be someone out there that needs to hear just that."
This is primarily why I blog publicly. A couple years ago, I was thinking about and praying about what my gifts were and how to use them for God's glory, and I was already blogging, only privately, for family and friends. Some of the things I wrote encouraged people, and I thought, "Lord, if you could use these words for a larger audience, I will trust you to bring them to read my words. If it's only one person who is affected positively, that's OK." But at least I made myself available to Him to use.
So I write and share. To process my own thoughts and growth and how they intersect TRUTH, and to (hopefully) influence others to do the same.
Blessings.
Hey -- what happened to Mama to 3 bears -- wasn't she the host of the blog-a-thon? I can't find it, I get a message saying it's no longer there, an if you "right click" on the blog-a-thon logo.....it says "function disabled" What the heck? Do you know anything about that?
I really didn't know why I was blogging when I started. I just kinda started a blog and started blabbing. It wasn't until a year ago when I started sharing my weight loss rollercoaster that I really starting getting into the groove. Talking publicly about my insecurities..made it so that I was incontrol of them...not letting the insecurities be in control of me. The most liberating thing I did? Was reveal my weight to the world! And NOBODY made fun of me or said eww gross fattie. It has been a great experience!
Wow, great thoughts. Love when you hear something and it sticks around long enough to get a blog post out of (atleast)!! Lately, Ive been praying actually, that things that have changed my life, things that have hurt, or rocked the world around me, would stick around a little...or atleast long enough to get the lesson out of it. Seems like things dont stick around very long with me. I Like that "Progress is the goal not perfection" seems to make it more manageable, especially when none of us CAN be truly perfect. Great post. Thanks for sharing!! Now off to listen to your link.
Such wonderful thoughts! I love how you came full circle, see Progress!
I have the hardest time making progress, but not seeking perfection. It is such a daily struggle for so many of us I am sure.
"That there will be someone that will benefit from what I blog. That what ever I write about there may be someone out there that needs to hear just that."
This is great. I was at the conference too and I am pretty shy, so I am guessing we didn't meet. This week on my blog I am talking about the confenerce and how it relates to my panic attacks that I used to and sometimes get. My readers do not know this about me since it hasn't come up yet, but in relation to what you wrote I received a comment from someone who's daughter is going through the very same thing and she thanked me for my post.
I made a small difference today for someone else and if I never get another comment again, i will keep writing because whatever we have to say, makes a difference to someone no matter how trivial we think it is.
uh -oh I just left a super long comment and I clicked out before I knew if you had word verification on...
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