I have been craving this time of the year for the last couple of months. Fall is my favorite. I looked forward to being in a routine again. One we were familiar with. We get more done around the house and we sleep better and we have more quality family time and we cook more dinners at home when we have an established routine. I have been craving getting back to work. To see my friends and work my brain again in different ways than I have over the last 7 months. I miss Mary, our daycare lady. I looked forward to having her be a more integral part of our lives again. And I miss school. To keep Anna busy and learning and with her friends.
But ALL of that doesn't make tomorrow any easier. I have tried to keep VERY busy over the last couple of days because when I slow down and stop to think about it, I can hardly handle the thought of tomorrow. I can't stop the tears from flowing.
Anxiety is a nasty beast. One that I usually handle pretty well. But when it comes to this, it has grabbed a hold and won't let go. I am anxious about working again after being out for 7 months while at the same time thankful I have a job to go back to. I am anxious about Nora being in daycare and "missing out" on so much while at the same time thankful that we know and love Mary so much. And I am anxious about Anna being a 1st grader and will she like her teacher and ALL that comes with having a child in school while at the same time knowing she is so ready to get back at it.
Anxiety is a nasty beast. One that I usually handle pretty well. But when it comes to this, it has grabbed a hold and won't let go. I am anxious about working again after being out for 7 months while at the same time thankful I have a job to go back to. I am anxious about Nora being in daycare and "missing out" on so much while at the same time thankful that we know and love Mary so much. And I am anxious about Anna being a 1st grader and will she like her teacher and ALL that comes with having a child in school while at the same time knowing she is so ready to get back at it.
Who thought it would be a good idea to do all this on one day? To tackle the anxiety and fears all at once! I guess the one thing I do know is that by the end of the week I should be feeling so much better than I do right now.
11 comments:
Such a big day for your family! I will be thinking of you!!
Hang in there!!! All will be better after the first week back in the swing of things.....at least that is what I am told!! hahahah
I can imagine that would be very tough! I will be praying for you! btw, I just LOVE the name Nora. It is just so classic and beautiful!
Hang tough Tina! It's all going to turnout AWESOME!
Good luck. Than anxiety and mom guilt is there but it will all be fine and you'll find the new groove.
Good luck. I'll be thinking about you.
Deep breaths. You are all going to be just fine. THe waiting for it all to happen is the worst part.
I feel the same way Tina. I just said to Kirby a few weeks ago that I love summer and the free-ness that we have but sometimes a schedule is a nice thing! Good luck with your family first day....
Hope today is going great!
I read this post on my iPhone this morning and wanted to comment but had no time. But I thought of you today and hope it went well!
I hope that today went well! The first week was the worst for me and I looked at pictures of my twins constantly. Now I miss them but I'm so happy to turn my brain on again and get out of the house. It just took 2 hours to feed one of the boys, making me realize that I'm really glad that I can get out during the day!!!
I hope you had a great first day back at work!
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